let's save 2nd base!

So, in March, I registered Ryan, Aiden & I in the CIBC Run for the Cure. It's coming up quick! (Today was the team deadline for personalized team tees & for once, everyone has paid the $40 registration fee or raised @ least $150 in donations! - yay!) Since we do it as a family, we actually 'walk' the 5K instead of running. It's my third time participating this year & second for Ry & I.

However, this year is pretty special. We're doing it in memory of Tatay. Although he didn't have breast cancer, it was cancer nonetheless. & after a 6 month battle w/ lung cancer we lost our Tatay on August 1st. It will be bittersweet ...

C.L.L. - we miss you

back to the daily grind of student life

I feel sleepy.

It's definitely different this time around. Even though I'm only taking 3 classes this semester, I also have work, Ryan & Aiden! It's only the 2nd week & I'm already finding it difficult to juggle my time between what school demands & hanging out with my boys. Aiden can be so demanding some days - sometimes he just really wants his mama! Ryan on the other hand, understands when I have to put him on hold, hehehe. BUT, it's only SEVEN more months! & then I'll finally have my undergrad degree under my belt!

As much as it's a challenge, I love the change of pace. Different scene, different people. Being downtown, amongst all the hustle & bustle of every day life is such a treat. I love learning about what will interest my future employers, mentors. As much as I want this whole process to be over, I'm terrified of what's next? Ask me what my dream job is, & I don't even think I would have an answer for you.

Ok, real life: HR Director for an apparel organization

fantasy life: SAHM, with a small scrapbooking store :)

What different lives!

simply amazing

this is his creation.
(*photo courtesy of Richard Johnson)

i adore you, not just because you're my husband - but because you have this passion, this commitment. it is so refreshing to see someone love what they do so much (& i guess it makes it a lot easier for you because you're so good at what you do!) lucky you, that you have found something that compels you. but trust me, i know that you have so much strength & determination - things like this don't just happen, you have to work for it, you have to work hard. what an awesome role model you'll be for A. what an inspiration you've become for me.

you are simply amazing.

*the dish was created for a venison competition, Ry won 2 out of the 5 prizes & the top overall prize, score!

on the first day of september

& just like that, a month passes us by.

not a day goes by that I don't think about you,
not a moment goes by that I don't miss seeing your face.

the holes in my heart are aching,
will this ever get easier?

I'm not ready for another goodbye

I seem to be masking all my sadness - through laughter. I'm fining myself being irritated easily, angry with my partner-in-crime because of the pain that hits my heart. I'm not ready to battle this emotional roller coaster. I'm not ready for yet another goodbye.

My head is telling me, that there's no reason to feel this way. That we'll wait until things are etched in stone, before we start feeling sorry. But my heart is trying to prepare, for the things that are to come - the inevitable.

I'm loosing hope, loosing faith.
I'm spending the free time that I have making, creating, bundling the memories that we've shared. Because one day, that's what I'll be clinching onto.