Monday, April 11, 2011

we had the perfect timing,

April 10: ryan and i
we're (just) ordinary people.

We're going to be okay right? Hell ya.
It's still surreal. I married the boy that I fell in love with in high school - I kinda always knew it was going to be him. He finished culinary school & indulged himself in the industry. I've never met anyone who's more passionate about the way Ryan feels about food. The next few years came a bit backwards. We found out it was going to be us plus one, so we got engaged & tied the knot. After our A turned one, we bought ourselves a lovely little home. I finally finished my undergrad degree in commerce & started my "career". I love the little life we've created. (our dreams are made of real things)

Feeling all sorts of nostalgia. There's just something about the beginning of warmer weather that brings you back to those days you can remember - the best days. (hands down, this is the best day I can ever imagine). Ever feel as though, your very own life could play the part in a movie? That you own trials and tribulations are those of the main characters and you're just waiting for your very own happily ever after? Or ever feel so in tune with the plot of a tv show that you swear it were mimicking the soundtrack of your life? Sometimes I feel as if I'm living vicariously through these fictional characters - that they're lives are something that I'm aspiring to be. I guess that's the magic of what producers and directors can accomplish - making us feel as though, yes - this could be possible - even for me.

I used to think that my best writing, my best words came from when I was feeling the worst. I used to think that I needed that dramatic inclination in my personal life to come to the complete realization that - well, I actually didn't need the drama at all. (I was a dreamer before you & you let me down). For me, words have always been my own escape & it was also a bonus when words were paired up with the right song that said the right words that made you feel the right mood.
Nothing can make you feel something as quickly as music can.

even the best fall down sometimes
sunshine, been keeping me up for days
hey baby, i think i wanna marry you
if we loved again, i swear i'd love you right
so don't complicate it, by hesitating
we could live through these letters or forget them altogether
when i'm hurting baby, i ain't happy baby
i'm not broke, i'm just a broken hearted man
would you lay with me and just forget the world
you are the only exception
what's wrong with being selfish?
the whole world stops and stares for a while
& you never will forget, the way you left when romeo kissed juliet
there's no combination of words i could put on the back of a postcard
if falling for you girl is crazy, then i'm going out of my mind
this is for the lovers - strictly for the lovers

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

still sick

April 5: oh boy ..

Day 3:
We're getting there, but A's still not 100% just quite yet.
He's having a hard time keeping any of his food down and still having runny stools - this of course, results in lots of throwing up and tummy aches.
Last night, while the three of us were watching the Top Chef finale - Aiden bursts out saying, "ohhh no, not again" as he experiences some more pain in his belly. (so cute!)

It's times like these that I am beyond grateful that I'm able to work from home. But during the last few days, I'm come to realize that there is no where I would rather be than right here - at home. The most important thing to be, is being able to spend as much time with Aiden and Ryan that possibly can. & this is possible! I just need to get my head straight & need to start making this change for myself. It has to begin now. I can do this, I can do this, I can do this.

I am giving myself a deadline (for once) - after my Mat Leave (well, really, I have to get pregs 1st), but after my Mat Leave - I can't come back. I will have build something for myself and will have the ability to stay at home with babies while doing something that I completely love. (Oh, & my brother will be my partner-in-crime). Let's get it going, let's go!

Sunday, April 3, 2011

A, today

What a difference a day can make. Aiden woke up at 430am this morning complaining about a tummy ache - he then vomited and had some number two's. All day he's been feeling under the weather and completely attached to Mama (which I must admit, I kinda miss from when he was a babe!) ... Seems like he caught some sort of bug (I also asked him if he ate some of his playdoh - cause that would make anyone sick). He hasn't had much of an appetite either, which is a huge change for him since he loves food - poor guy. We've been laying low, watching some cartoons on the couch (corner spot) with a ton of blankets. Hoping we getting our ball of energy Aiden back soon.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

cupcakes anyone?

If nothing else is planned, the weekends usually mean that Chels and Shalam (William) sleep over our home. A loves having them around. We baked some chocolate cupcakes & decorated them with white chocolate icing and blue sprinkles. A was a lovely helper.

capturing today - around our home

So happy that I'm back to taking photos again -
Love being at home, love saturdays with A, just lounging at home - my favourite.


Loads & loads of laundry ....


Our 1st plant in our home, a song of India - still need to find a little pot for it


Aiden's favourite toy at the moment - spending hours figuring out the alphabet


I guess we thought we had more books than we actually do! So much space to fill!


Aiden's taking photos with me too


Still thinking if we need to add more frames to this wall


My tablet's finally made it out of its box, hoping to finally start using it again -

Happy, happy.